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I’ve totally been slacking on taking HNT pics lately and today is no different. I was going to take some new pics sometime today but I just haven’t had the motivation, so I’m going to share a pic that was taken at my birthday party back in October. My man and I and some friends were out at a bar for karaoke, the bottom button on my dress wouldn’t stay buttoned, and my honey decided to let his hand wander. Of course, I didn’t stop him.

I promise I’ll be a good girl and get some new pictures for you this weekend. But if I fail, feel free to spank me.

Make sure you check out Osbasso’s blog for other HNT submissions.

Enjoy! <3

I know I’m a little late for Blog for Choice Day (it was back on Friday, January 22 and it celebrated the 37th anniversary of Roe v. Wade), but I’ve been giving my opinions some thought and decided to post what I’ve come up with.

I am Pro-Choice.

I strongly believe that you have the CHOICE to have sex.

If you are not prepared to have sex RESPONSIBLY, then DON’T HAVE SEX.

If you DO have sex responsibly but are not prepared to deal with the consequences of a rare birth control failure, then DON’T HAVE SEX.

I had an unplanned pregnancy my senior year in college. Was I prepared for it? Hell no. I was young, I wasn’t settled, didn’t have a job, wasn’t emotionally prepared to have a child. Was abortion an option? HELL NO. Despite my lack of preparation, killing the child growing inside of me was not even a thought.

Yes, that’s right, I said KILLING A CHILD. Because that’s what abortion is. It’s not “termination,” it’s not “ending a pregnancy,” it’s KILLING a LIVING HUMAN. These terms are euphemisms. The dictionary definition of a euphemism is this: the substitution of a mild, indirect, or vague expression for one thought to be offensive, harsh, or blunt. Is that not exactly what these terms are? No one wants to hear that they are killing their baby, because that’s the harsh truth. Instead, most women who get abortions dance around what they are really doing to make it easier on themselves. Any one who needs to use a euphemism to refer to their “choice” to have an abortion is, in my eyes, not mentally ready to have an abortion.

My decision to never have an abortion had nothing to do with my Christian faith. I wasn’t even a Christian when I made the decision. When I was in middle school, we watched an abortion video in Science class. It was called “Silent Scream.” In this video, we saw the effects of an abortion through an ultrasound. We saw a baby being ripped limb from limb as it was sucked forcefully out of it’s mother’s uterus. We saw the baby’s head being crushed by forceps so that it could be pulled out of the mother. We saw buckets of discarded baby parts in the back room of an abortion clinic. Seeing the HORROR and VIOLENCE of what goes on in an abortion made my decision against abortion for me.

A BABY aborted at 22 weeks

If you have not seen “Silent Scream,” I highly suggest you watch it here. It is powerful and disturbing, and if you are for abortion, I hope that it gives you a new perspective on it.

So, abortion was not an option for me. I faced the consequences of my CHOICE to have sex. I went to classes when I was dealing with morning sickness, I made up my assignments on the days that I couldn’t get out of bed, I finished up my degree and I continued  to work so that I could support the little miracle growing inside of me and I grew the fuck up. Despite the fact that it was an unplanned pregnancy, my son was the biggest blessing I could have ever asked for. Even when I was struggling to support us, even when the rest of my childless friends were able to go out for the evening and I was stuck at home with my baby, I never regretted it, I never wished that I could go back and change it. I had made my CHOICE and I was happy to live with it, as difficult as it could be at times.

When thinking about abortion, I became curious as to how many women who have them end up regretting them. Upon Googling “post abortion support,” I found HUNDREDS of groups dedicated to helping women cope with having abortions. If there was no need for these groups, they wouldn’t exist. According to ClinicQuotes.com, in a five year study cited in “Report on the Committee on the Operation of the Abortion Law” (Ottawa, Canada, 1977, p 20-1), 25% of women who had abortion sought out psychiatric care later, as opposed to only 3% of women who did not have abortions.”

Some women who feel fine about their abortions immediately after may even develop psychiatric problems later on in their life as a result. David Reardon, author of Aborted Women: Silent No More (Westchester, Ill.:Crossway Books, 1987, 116) says:

A woman that a six-month post-abortion survey declares “well-adjusted” may experience severe trauma on the anniversary of the abortion date, or even many years later. This fact is attested to in psychiatric textbooks which affirm that…”the psychiatrist frequently hears expressions of remorse and guilt concerning abortions that occurred twenty or more years earlier.” In one study, the number of women who expressed “serious self-reproach” increased fivefold over the period of time covered by the study.

There can also be many physical consequences of an abortion, including damage to the uterus, damage to the cervix, damage to other internal organs, heavy bleeding, infection, sepsis, etc. If the “choice” for abortion is such a good one, such a “blessing” as Rev. Katherine Ragsdale puts it (this article was brought to my attention by Brit’s post for Blog for Choice day), why would women’s bodies and minds react in such a way?

1.3 million abortions a year. Is that really acceptable in a country where birth control is easily accessible? Over at the Champagne and Benzedrine blog, he quotes “Tammy Bruce, a self-proclaimed ‘conservative feminist’”. She says: “With every kind of birth control available in the world, abortion is not something to be proud of. If you need an abortion, you’ve failed.” I don’t know if “failed” is the right word, so much as you’ve refused to accept the consequences of your CHOICE.

So what now? Well, I think that women AND men need to be educated on what abortion REALLY is. If someone took a hit of acid which caused them to be violent and kill someone, you wouldn’t call it a “blessing” and applaud their choice to do what they want with their body. You would call it a tragedy and think what a bad CHOICE that person made. That may be a harsh comparison, but that’s pretty much what’s happening. Women are making the CHOICE of what to do with their bodies and innocent humans are getting killed in their wake.

“Early feminist Mattie Brinkerhoff, writing in Victorian women’s rights magazine The Revolution, said the following:

When a man steals to satisfy hunger, we may safely conclude that there is something wrong in society. So when a woman destroys the life of her unborn child, it is an evidence that either by education or circumstances she has been greatly wronged.” (Champagne and Benzedrine)

Instead of fighting for the right to kill, let’s fight for the right to educate and protect.

As a sexy extra in the bedroom, the Love Pillow from Adam & Eve provides added comfort and support for multiple sex positions. I, and my honey and I together, have used the Love Pillow in 4 of the suggested 8 positions and it has made for easier, more comfortable sexual experiences.

The pillow is easily inflatable and has a velvet-like surface, which is soft on the skin but also prevents slipping & unwanted movement. The pillow seems to stand up against any weight or pressure that’s put on it. After 5 uses, it has not deflated at all but has retained it’s shape perfectly.

The pillow comes with a repair kit just in case your sexual escapades become too much for the pillow to handle. It also comes with a “Love Positions Booklet” to help you maximize your sex furniture experience. The booklet features 8 positions modeled by Carmen Luvana and Shannon Fuller and provides explanations for how the Love Pillow assists in that particular position.

Here are the pictures from the booklet and any comments I have on them:

I tried the Flying Solo position as soon as the pillow came in the mail. The support of the pillow allowed for a better angle and better reach when I used a vibrator. Double handed masturbation with a vibrator and a dildo, however, is awkward using the pillow.

The pillow also allows for a better angle during missionary, or alternated with the man upright on his knees, which I found allowed for deeper penetration and had a big impact on my G-spot.

Have not tried, but looks fun!

My honey and I have used the pillow while he has gone down on me and he has reported that it put less of a strain on his neck and allowed him easier access to my clit.

Have not tried.

I love doggie-style and anal sex but being in this position usually puts a strain on my back (I have prior back problems). Using the pillow to prop myself up eliminated that problem. I was able to have doggie-style sex pain free! Thanks, Love Pillow! (Sorry, that started sounding like an infomercial.)

Have not tried.

Have not tried.

So, as you can see, not only have I had good experiences with the Love Pillow, but the pictures in the booklet are hot enough that they can be used in case of a porn emergency.

The recap:

Positives - Easily inflatable and deflatable, can be folded up and packed easily for transport, keeps it’s shape no matter how many times you use it or how heavy you are, provides support and comfort for a number of different positions, comes with a repair kit and a helpful (and sexy) booklet, cleans up fairly easily with just a wet washcloth (though I haven’t unleashed the torrent that usually accompanies my orgasms onto it yet), and is a great price at only $24.95.

Negatives - The ONLY negative that I can see about this product is that it’s currently on backorder over at Adam & Eve!

I give this product a full 5 out of 5 Happy Bamboos!

Disclaimer: I have a material connection and receive products, as in-kind payments, from Adam & Eve for review.

In honor of Eddie Izzard, who is amazing and sexy and who I am seeing perform tonight LIVE (WOOOOOO!), I give you… My box. Enjoy!

Make sure you check out the other Half-Nekkid Thursday submissions over at Osbasso’s blog!

The TMI Tuesday questions come from this blog. You can check out other people’s answers, too!

1. Ideal amount of sex per week? Under perfect physical & time conditions, at least a dozen times a week would be ideal. Unfortunately, time & physical limitations prevent that.
2. Ever had an online affair? Nope.
3. Are you a member of the mile high club? I haven’t had that experience yet, and I don’t know that I want to. Airplane bathrooms are certainly no place for more than 1 person (hell, they’re barely big enough for only 1 person!) and the actual seats are so small & I have so little leg room that any type of sexual maneuvering would be nigh impossible.
4. Are you predjudice against any particular group of people? Yes. Douchebags & idiots.
5. What constitutes bad sex? There are a lot of things that can contribute to bad sex: a lack of connection, a lack of “meshing”, one partner or the other flopping around like a dead fish…

Bonus (as in optional): Can females ejaculate? Yes, of course. I do, almost every time I orgasm.

She comes to me

in dreams.

Whether I wake or sleep,

she haunts my mind.

Black hair flows

like the soundless ocean,

tossing and turning above me.

I drown in it,

in her,

soaking her in,

gasping for air.

She has the power to kill

and to resurrect

all in one, soft touch

of her lips.

She is mine

and I am hers,

yet she is so far out of my reach

that my arms grow weary

and ache

from constantly reaching for her.

I writhe in sweet agony

at the thought of her,

fingers exploring the darkest parts,

pressing the sweetest of buttons,

bringing me to that perfect release.

Perfect but one thing:

she stays only in my dreams.

This week’s Microfantasy Monday theme is “Dreams,” brought to us, as always, by the incomparable Sweltering Celt. Make sure you check out her blog and the other MfM submissions.

These eyes belong to the love of my life.

These eyes express love and lust, hurt and anxiety.

These eyes see into my heart, see me for who I really am.

With just one look of these eyes, I know that I am loved unconditionally.

With just one look of these eyes, I know that I am wanted.

With just one look of these eyes, I know that I am needed.

I could stare into these eyes for eternity.

And I will.

Check out the rest of the HNTs over at Osbasso’s blog.

These questions come from the TMI Tuesday blog. Check it out!

Would you rather…..

1. A relaxing vacation or an adventurous trip? Can’t I do both? Seriously, the perfect vacation would have lots of relaxation AND lots of adventure, but if I have to choose just ONE, right now it would have to be a relaxing vacation. With all of the activity of the holidays and frustrations of dealing with the power company lately, I definitely need some time to lie on a beach and do absolutely nothing.
2. Get a perfect nights sleep or have amazing sex? Sex, definitely. I can sleep when I’m dead! I wanna fuck!!
3. Be intimate with the lights on or off? On or at least dimly lit. I like to be able to see my partner’s reactions.
4. Your S/O be a terrible kisser who could always make you orgasm or an amazing kisser who could never make you orgasm? An amazing kisser. I love making out & kissing is a very intimate act for me, and I can always make myself cum if need be.
5. Date someone much younger or much older than you? Older. I like maturity & experience.

Bonus (as in optional): Which reality show would you be good at? Why? It’s not on anymore, but I would have loved to be on “The Mole” AS the mole. I think I’d be good at getting people to trust me & hiding my true intentions (not that I’ve had any experience with that, but I’ve always wanted to be an actress) as well as stealthily throwing the challenges.